Think for me sometimes too.
Marriage.
Wow.
"Ok nxt yr it is nxt yr it is." I said feebly. Do i have a choice now? Really, i felt being driven to the wall. Simply put, its either your way, or the highway.
I really like this woman. But wow, thats really fast. Caught me unprepared.
That got me thinking the whole night. into the whole of next day. I had work the next day. I have to do deliveries. I have to talk to people. i have to run here and there. It was really god damn breathless you know that. i got to entertain people and i have shit like that gnawing at the back of my mind.
Next bloody year technically is just a matter of 5-6 wks away.
Resolutely. I can. I want to.
A civil union between a man and woman. a man and woman, who are deeply in love, and who want to spend the rest of their lives enduring each others' nonsense, loving each other, sharing their lives together.
"What are you dating me for? With marriage in mind, or just to past time?"
"Of course for the long term darling! What kind of question is that?"
"How long do you think we will marry then?"
"2 years i guess?"
"What are you dating me for? With marriage in mind, or just to past time?"
"Of course for the long term darling! What kind of question is that?"
"How long do you think we will marry then?"
"2 years i guess?"
You have asked me more than once. If i was serious abt u. With increasing annoyance (ever so slightly) i have told u time and time again i am serious abt u, and i am dating you wif marriage in mind. That opinion has not changed.
And i think this opinion is further reinforced, that despite all the stupid and pointless fights that you pick with me, i am still here. I still love you the same. I still want u just as much.
Suddenly you tell me, after 5 weeks of being together you want to do it nxt yr and u wont wait for 2.
I said yes. Okay. "Whatever you want darling." I meant it.
"I am not gg to wait for 2 years for u. either we do nxt yr or we just end". you said staunchly.
Suddenly you tell me, after 5 weeks of being together you want to do it nxt yr and u wont wait for 2.
I said yes. Okay. "Whatever you want darling." I meant it.
"I am not gg to wait for 2 years for u. either we do nxt yr or we just end". you said staunchly.
Wow.
"Ok nxt yr it is nxt yr it is." I said feebly. Do i have a choice now? Really, i felt being driven to the wall. Simply put, its either your way, or the highway.
I really like this woman. But wow, thats really fast. Caught me unprepared.
That got me thinking the whole night. into the whole of next day. I had work the next day. I have to do deliveries. I have to talk to people. i have to run here and there. It was really god damn breathless you know that. i got to entertain people and i have shit like that gnawing at the back of my mind.
Next bloody year technically is just a matter of 5-6 wks away.
My God. People generally don't talk about marriage till they have dated for a few months, maybe closer to 1 year.
And we r having this talk on the 5th week of dating?
I am absolutely unprepared for this. i dun even dare to think that will be in a rs again. much less get married. here i am 5 wks into an rs, and now suddenly the notion of a marriage spring up and grab me.
And we r having this talk on the 5th week of dating?
I am absolutely unprepared for this. i dun even dare to think that will be in a rs again. much less get married. here i am 5 wks into an rs, and now suddenly the notion of a marriage spring up and grab me.
This is ridiculous. I AM NOT READY!!!!!! WHY IS SHE TALKING ABOUT THIS NOW SO FAST!!!
She is gg 39 already. She doesnt have much time left. Do I?
I didnt think i would ever have someone, much less get married. But here i am; i finally have someone. I love this woman. Can i just do this for her sake? It has to happen sooner or later anyway.
I didnt think i would ever have someone, much less get married. But here i am; i finally have someone. I love this woman. Can i just do this for her sake? It has to happen sooner or later anyway.
Maybe she's afraid i will back out after 2 years. or what. So can i?
Resolutely. I can. I want to.
So whats the darn issue now?
This shit is getting serious. We are talking about marriage. Being together to the end of time. Or well, the end of our lives.
This shit is getting serious. We are talking about marriage. Being together to the end of time. Or well, the end of our lives.
i am really nervous. abt everything. very sudden. can i feel nervous? can i have a nervous breakdown? can i feel uneasy? can i feel unprepared? can i be stressed? Caused i nvr think it can get this far so soon? Suddenly date for 5 weeks, talk about marriage?
Me? get married? dun say i find it hard to believe. People will find it hard to believe also.
Do i need to ask for permission to feel kan cheong? Is it wrong of me to feel kan cheong? U think i want to feel uneasy and uptight?
Look, on hindsight, instead of pressing me and making me feel worse, how abt trying to be nicer to me and try to make me feel more @ ease?
Do i need to ask for permission to feel kan cheong? Is it wrong of me to feel kan cheong? U think i want to feel uneasy and uptight?
Look, on hindsight, instead of pressing me and making me feel worse, how abt trying to be nicer to me and try to make me feel more @ ease?
Now that we r talking abt stuff that is so serious. Do i need to consider my feelings, where i stand, and moving along, my happiness in the long run? And think hard, i did.
I think its my fault that i didnt establish this right from the start. But i am a person that really values my own personal space. If you ask me what is it that i need to do, i honestly have no idea. slack, watch show, be it a movie that u dun wanna c or stay @ home watch youtube, play games or wadever thing. or go out for a kopi wif friends.
i know u said i can always do my own thing when you are around, and i really appreciate that.
but u know what, its not the same when i am alone and wif u around. its just different when i am on my own, alone, i feel more at ease. can u at least try to understand that?
look, its not like i am taking the time to go and meet girls or flirt or what. non of that.
yes i know u said u can follow me when i go meet my friends and all that. which is really nice of u. But lemme give u an example. If i know i am gonna sit at a coffeeshop, or hang around in a car park talking nonsense wif friends for 2 hours, knowing that u wont catch anything of what we r saying. or maybe got salty language which u dun like. maybe make an inappropriate joke or 2. And there's absolutely nothing for u there except play wif yr phone.
Bascially, guys talk. Knowing u will get bored. or annoyed. And seeing how u always value yr time and shit.
Do i really want u there when i know u will get pissed off?
God forbid, of course not. So if i can't go to, or dun wan to go to these meets when you are around, knowing u won't like it or will get angry from it.
When can i go lei? Should i have some time off to do somethings like these on my own too?
yes i know u said u can follow me when i go meet my friends and all that. which is really nice of u. But lemme give u an example. If i know i am gonna sit at a coffeeshop, or hang around in a car park talking nonsense wif friends for 2 hours, knowing that u wont catch anything of what we r saying. or maybe got salty language which u dun like. maybe make an inappropriate joke or 2. And there's absolutely nothing for u there except play wif yr phone.
Bascially, guys talk. Knowing u will get bored. or annoyed. And seeing how u always value yr time and shit.
Do i really want u there when i know u will get pissed off?
God forbid, of course not. So if i can't go to, or dun wan to go to these meets when you are around, knowing u won't like it or will get angry from it.
When can i go lei? Should i have some time off to do somethings like these on my own too?
We spend almost everyday together. I dun have time for myself anymore. Its not like i am goofing off in the day u know what i mean. I am not having fun.
All i ask, is we meet 2 or 3 days less a week for a start, and slowly adjust from there as time pass. I nvr even got a chance to say this you decide to block me. again.
People have months and months of time to do that. to go through all the stages from courtship to married properly. from meeting afew times a wk. or even less. to meeting more and more as time pass. then start to stay over. maybe from afew nights a wk. to more. We don't. u realized we progress really fast?
While getting to understand(at least, its how i think it is), and accept why u want it nxt yr, and mentally prepping myself to do it nxt yr. is already my compromise. why can't u just think for me also leh? give me what i want? Or u just want me to bend me to yr will? Go with yr way? Must do everything u say and exact to your will and idea(s)?
RS is a 2 way street. Everything u and nothing me, whats the point? I will burn out 1 day one.
I love u, i want us to work. if u love me too, and i need yr help to make it work, okay?
People have months and months of time to do that. to go through all the stages from courtship to married properly. from meeting afew times a wk. or even less. to meeting more and more as time pass. then start to stay over. maybe from afew nights a wk. to more. We don't. u realized we progress really fast?
While getting to understand(at least, its how i think it is), and accept why u want it nxt yr, and mentally prepping myself to do it nxt yr. is already my compromise. why can't u just think for me also leh? give me what i want? Or u just want me to bend me to yr will? Go with yr way? Must do everything u say and exact to your will and idea(s)?
RS is a 2 way street. Everything u and nothing me, whats the point? I will burn out 1 day one.
I love u, i want us to work. if u love me too, and i need yr help to make it work, okay?
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