I love u so much, but how much do u know or understand?

U r quite right. We were nvr suitable. It was a bad mistake, and therefore we have wasted all of our time. We are really very different people. I couldn’t get yr “dfferent directions in life” part though.  Becoz mine, is wanted to be happy wif u, always, every single day. If there’s anything I learnt by being with u for that few weeks. Its that we really are very different. Character wise. I guess as much as I hate to admit it, maybe we need to find people more like ourselves to be happy. you know, I am actually a very easy gg person. I respect other people’s privacy. Everyone has some skeletons in their closet they are not willing to talk abt and its perfectly fine. I dun have to know. What matters is the presence and future and the value, the happiness, the joy, that we can all give to each others lives; past to me is exactly what it is, past. I am willing to not know, not be told, even overlook. And this really applies to everyone around me. Gf. Friends. Or what. I dun thin

My dear Vernice Its been a month since we left each other. Many times, I think about you, and it hurts me so. I tear sometimes when I think of us. It hurts me enough to want to write you something. But when I try. It hurts me enough when I think about how difficult you have been to me, and I close Word. But in the end. I eventually sat down to this, in bed, at 2am in the morning, writing this to you. I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow, and I think. I have waited long enough. i know i covered some of these things before, and i am repeating again here but its just to let u understand how much i went thru, how bad i felt. I am not 记仇。but u need to know, u need to understand. Bear in mind, I am writing this to you for your own good also. Regardless from now on, your life have me or not. I hope you will read what I wrote to you. And have a good think about yourself as a person. Whether you need to change or not. If you think I am not making sense or there’s nothing wro

Marriage. A civil union between a man and woman. a man and woman, who are deeply in love, and who want to spend the rest of their lives enduring each others' nonsense, loving each other, sharing their lives together. "What are you dating me for? With marriage in mind, or just to past time?" "Of course for the long term darling! What kind of question is that?" "How long do you think we will marry then?" "2 years i guess?" You have asked me more than once. If i was serious abt u. With increasing annoyance (ever so slightly) i have told u time and time again i am serious abt u, and i am dating you wif marriage in mind. That opinion has not changed.  And i think this opinion is further reinforced, that despite all the stupid and pointless fights that you pick with me, i am still here. I still love you the same. I still want u just as much. Suddenly you tell me, after 5 weeks of being together you want to do it nxt yr and u w

Just like that. But i love u. 

Its been awhile. But I needed time. i have largely held off writing something. Or even anything. There’s actually quite a fair bit, but I genuinely have no idea where to start. I didn’t exactly want to do this. To write another essay. Honestly, I dread this. I needed time to sort out my feelings. I needed time to think abt what and how I wanted to write. Actually many a time, writing has become a way to put my feelings across; I am not that good at face to face confrontations. Or speaking, for that matter. U said you wanted the ugly truth. In a way, this is me giving it, or sharing It with you. I think, its come to a point, I need to. If we don’t sort this out now. We will never be happy. Disclaimer. The words may, or will sting. Salty language included. Not the first time that you have not allowed me to speak uninterrupted and when you get pissed off, you just hang up. In that sense, from my perspective, I have no chance to say anything. And times I ca